SILENCE

im an awkward person. yes i am. im being awkward all the time.

i cant stand the silence when people not talking, i feel so awkward.. the moment of silence is awkward.

i dont say much when im new with people. i just dont know how to initiate a conversation.

people might say "sombong la dia" but actually i just dont know what to say. and im afraid if i initiate conversation, it might make people not comfortable. so i let people to initiate conversation first, which shows that they are comfortable enough to talk with me. and im ready to hear and listen.

so to avoid, people call me sombong and the awkward silence, i will try my best to talk about anything. even actually, im not comfortable doing it. (unless, i really want to converse, and pour my heart out or opinions.) i might say things that is so embarrassing sometimes, i even get angry (dont know why,maybe i frustrated with myself bcos i cant talk)

but then i realised..

why are we embarrassed by silence? what comfort do we find in all the noise?

we shouldnt.. we should comfortable with ourselves right?

so be you.. and the right people will come. and having the best conversation ever. maybe with deep talk about life, any heavy topics or even laugh out loud without reasons also the precious moment of silence.